Memories Uncovered

 Sometimes you go through the lurking edges of your computerized world and find treasures... sometimes these treasures make you catch your breath.

I have been digging in my computer since my original one crapped out - the motherboard died, requiring me to migrate over to a new (to me) computer.

And I found this, circa 2003. And I burst into tears.



Brian was attempting to take photos of us for a sarcastic Christmas card we wanted to design to send to friends who "got" our weird sense of humor. Hence, being in front of "Circus Liquor" a creepy liquor store in North Hollywood. You can see him clicking the remote. It was dark where the tripod was set up and he accidentally pressed the wrong button... so we had a short video clip and he did not plan on it. We did get our photos and designed our Christmas card and sent it out that year. And we inadvertently got a video clip.

A clip that we never intended to have.

We were photo people. We did not do a lot of video at all. Now, I regret that. I wish I had filmed every small pathetic detail of our days. But I did not.

I did not know this was lurking in the computer - when I had downloaded the camera it came with all the photos and sat there quietly, waiting to be noticed. This is a treasure for me. Even if I got absolutely nothing for Christmas, this short little treasure makes me wealthy beyond measure.

Merry Christmas from Circus Liquor...

Love,
Kim

Gathering Memories After The Loss Of A Partner

My husband died in June of 2008 of pancreatic cancer.

Gatherings

I am coming up on the anniversary of Brian's death, his birthday and Father's Day.

I am remembering Brian.

Sparks Fly Upward - Artwork To Represent The Loss of a Husband

My husband died in June of 2008.

I am entering this piece in the Oncology On Canvas^SM: Expressions of a Cancer Journey Art Competition and Exhibition in the Family Member, Friend or Caregiver division. If selected, they will donate monies to my charity of choice. I am selecting the Cancer Support Community. Wish me luck!
 
Just for those of you that do not know me well, I am a widow. My husband died June, 2008 from pancreatic cancer at a young age.

 I have to write about this as well. Words come much harder for me. As I finish writing I will update this entry.
  
Love, 
Kim

Today's Reflections

Today was a busy day... The website members-area is starting - ever so modestly - to get joiners!

Our members-only area on the website is great for online community-building. I have been involved with an online woman's group that is using this technology and it is really great. Lots of options for dialing it in - you can enjoy or post music, videos, pictures... have a blog, participate in a forum... the members-area is free when you complete a questionnaire.

These are of some of our membership questions when you sign up...

Have you recently experienced a loss?

Have you spent time with someone who has experienced a significant loss?

What systems of personal and emotional support are you using currently?

What systems of personal and emotional support have you used previously?

What is your impression or understanding of yourself at this time in relation to impermanence?

Please describe your most challenging personal experience with impermanence (your own or that of someone close to you), and its effect on you.

Describe your personal experience with grief and your feelings about the grieving process.

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Today's Reflections

Image Credit: N. Charneco


I’m here.

I love you.

I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you.

There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love.

I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you.

I am stronger than depression and I am braver than loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.

-- Elizabeth Gilbert

Today's Reflections

Image Credit: Annie Danberg

Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry,

the philosophy which does not laugh

and the greatness which does not bow before children.

-- Kahlil Gibran

Today's Reflections

Image Credit: Michael Stevens

Our culture says men must be strong and that the strength of a man in sorrow is to be seen in his tearless face. Tears are for women. Tears are signs of weakness and women are permitted to be weak. But must we always mask our suffering? I mean, may we not sometimes allow people to see and enter it? May men not do this?

--Nicholas Wolterstorff