Poem

Borrowed Hope

Lend me your hope for awhile,
I seem to have mislaid mine.
Lost and hopeless feelings accompany me daily.
Pain and confusion are my companions.
I know not where to turn.
Looking ahead to the future times
Does not bring forth images of renewed hope.
I see mirthless times, pain-filled days, and more tragedy.
Lend me your hope for awhile,
I seem to have mislaid mine.
Hold my hand and hug me,
Listen to all my ramblings.
I need to unleash the pain and let it tumble out.
Recovery seems so far and distant,
The road to healing, a long and lonely one.
Stand by me. Offer me your presence,
Your ears and your love.
Acknowledge my pain, it is so real and ever present.
I am overwhelmed with sad and conflicting thoughts.
Lend me your hope for awhile.
A time will come when I will heal,
And I will lend my renewed hope to others.

— Eloise Cole

Today's Reflections

Today is a hard day - but in response to being marginalized and being made invisible (literally), I decided to try and reach out farther instead of obeying the instinct to roll up like a rolly polly.

One thing about having your soul mate die - is that the person that saw you no matter what ever else was going on is no longer physically here. I think he sees me still. Call me crazy or whatever. But I do think he sees me. It is just that a safe place is gone. So when I my very existence was made obsolete today, I only had myself and my breathing. And my cat. (Thank God for cats!)

So instead of rolling away, I am walking straight toward whoever will accept my presence. I have opened a new facebook group. It is called Grief and Healing Community. I have a co-admin for the site who is quite a fun Brit. And I hope that it can be a place where people are embraced and are not made invisible.

Easter resurrection is needed. I am reaching out for it.

Love,

THE DAY IS SLOWLY BOWING HER HEAD...

It is late (for me). I am tired and there are things I should be doing, like photographing the Easter Egg Geodes for you to see... but that will be a task for tomorrow...

Tonight, I want to share with you a little video I came upon... but, know that my friend watched it and it really got under her skin. It is one of those sad videos about loss and reunion....

HERE


I thought it was touching - gave me goosebumps...

Love,

KIDS EXPRESS

Today is another busy day, hosting a live chat about grief online and having 2 girls - 10 and 13 year old - coming to tonight to stay the weekend... so there is a lot to do to get ready...

BUT, part of getting ready is to share something we will be doing this weekend with YOU...

Here is one thing we will do this weekend:

GEODE EASTER EGGS

See the instructions via the link.

We need to start early so they have time to dry. Also, we have never done it before so we will conduct a test and see the results. Luckily, these girls are old enough that if we make a mistake they can handle any disappointment. So, we will make a batch now, and perhaps another nearer to Easter.

Part of our conversation while making geode eggs will be about various states of change... these girls have had 2 aunts die of breast cancer in the last few years and their mother is currently in remission from cancer.

I will let you know our results both scientifically and in our conversation. I'll take some pic too.

And, we'll have an omelette for dinner!

Have a great weekend!

Love,

Today's Reflections

Link to a beautiful rendition...

Dust in the Wind...

I close my eyes
Only for a moment and the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes, a curiosity

Dust in the wind
All they are is dust in the wind

Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground
Though we refuse to see

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind

Ohh...

Now don't hang on
Nothin' lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind (All we are is dust in the wind)
Dust in the wind (Everything is dust in the wind)
Everything is dust in the wind.

Today's Reflections

"Fairy tales are more than true: not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten."

-- G K Chesterton

Today's Reflections

Image Credit: Debora Stewart

"Come to the edge."
"We can't. We're afraid."
"Come to the edge."
"We can't. We will fall!"
"Come to the edge."
And they came.
And he pushed them.

And they flew.




- Guillaume Apollinaire

Today's Reflections

Everyone can see how they have polished the mirror
of the self, which is done with the longings
we're given.

Not everyone wants to be king!
There are different roles and many choices
within each.

Troubles come. One person pack up
and leaves. Another stays and deepens in a love
for being human.

In battle, one runs fearing
for his life. Another, just as scared, turns
and fights more fiercely.

-Rumi